Villan

Gah! Again? Really? I'm indescribably sick of being the bad guy. I don't even know what I'm doing, but somehow again I unwittingly manage to transform from a timid starving student with virtually no experience in drama or heartbreak into a heartless storm of malicious contempt for the feelings of those I care about. I know everyone says it isn't my fault but if it isn't my fault why does it keep happening? I am the common variable. Does naive inexperience always transform into inadvertent sadism? Where is the stupid handbook? Boys for dummies. Someone needs to write that one. Gah. Time for chocolate. Times like this I remember why I don't get involved. I promise I'm not trying to be a heartless creep, it's just who I am. I'm working on it. Really. I am. I know in the back of my head (maybe the frontal lobe?) that everything will be fine. That everything IS fine and that I need to just wait out the storm. Again. Still, this whole scene is definitely getting old. Blah. It's okay though. Really. Everything will be alright. Here we go again, I guess.